What kind and good thing will you do for the world and for yourself this weekend and what motivates that choice?
Hmm.. I'm gonna go on a pass for a few hours with my family, meaning I finally get to leave this nuthouse for a bit. The goal is to be positive, not have some weird freak anxiety attack, stay calm, use my coping tools [weird, i'm talkin about coping tools] if i start developing ideations of bad..thoughts... and uhm... YEAH! I don't know. I really hope nothing bad happens this weekend though. AND I GET THE RESULTS ON MY PSYCH TESTS TODAY! Not really something for me to be all excited about though, right? WRONG. I'm interested in what the computer has to say about my mind and my inner being. I will most definitely blog about it when I recieve the results though.
Back to the question however, the motivation to make this choice [coping and etc] is the more i get myself together, the faster i get out of here. And as weird as this may sound, I really don't wanna miss school anymore. I mean, I know were almost done and everything but I really REALLY want to come back. I need some structure in my life. For the past few months its been so out of wack. I go to school, then I dont, then I end up in the hospital, then I go to school, then I get into a fight, then I go back to the hospital. Its definitely a cycle I don't want to keep myself in. Sure, everyone needs a lil spice in their life. But I wouldn't exactly call this spice, this is more of a...hmm... tornado? OH EVEN BETTER. TYPHOON! or a TSUNAMI!
Normal. I want Normal.
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Friday, May 29, 2009
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Posted by Tinix at 7:56 AM
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I want a normal for you that allows you to live and love deeply, but that encourages you to care first and foremost for your emotional safety and personal integrity. I hope that you have a wonderful "pass" with your family. I like that you're internalizing the language of "coping tools". It was only after therapy and time that I figured out all of my "toolbox" but it's an idea and way of thinking that makes sense for surviving the tumult of life. We will be pleased as punch to have you back in school. With that said, I hope you'll take the time you need and deserve to focus on your health:) Looking forward to reading more reflections and thoughts.
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