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Thursday, April 30, 2009

Perfect.

So, for today, I'd like you to write about someone that you know and care about in life (could even be you) whose life is still in process, but they perhaps have made PROGRESS.

Wow. I'm pretty sure I can write a lot when it comes this kind of topic. Pretty much my love life right here. Alright, I'm gonna do this.

There's this guy. His name is Rob. Pretty much the only guy to ever catch my eye. Starting from the beginning he had me worried. Which is why I think I cared so much about him. Its weird if I think about it. In the past, if someone had a problem I would only pretend to care. But for him, it was a different story. I could see right through him. Right through all his stupid bullshit that he kept fronting. And same goes for me. He looked through me and knew what was really up, why I had a brick wall in front of me all the time. Not gonna lie, I was scared by the this. We were too much a like. Too much to the point that we would always butt heads. I've always been there for him when he was fucking up. Even though I didnt want too. Its hard to stop caring about someone who can do so much damage to you, you know? Its hard. I've tried not giving a damn about his problems. I tried spacing myself, but when you see someone sayin help, what are you suppose to do? Nothing? No, you do something. No matter the situation. Except with him, he would scream help, but wouldn't let anyone help him. It made no sense, it still makes no sense now. I wish I could stop caring about this kid. Its just too much pressure on me. But then again, theres nothing I can do. I can't help this kid. Especially if he won't let me.

Now this is how I see things. This kid obviously needs someone to show him love. Growing up, he was abused, emotionally & physically. I would know, he told me his life story. I see the good in people. And I try to let it out weigh the bad. But for him, the bad takes toll. Over everything. He used to be strong though you know? I don't know what happened though. He came back and turned back to his old self. Trying to block me out of everything while still saying he needs me in life. Shits crazy. Too crazy. Ahh. damn.

Death. I have no more to say.

1 comments:

Becky said...

I think it is wrenchingly difficult to love and care for someone who is spiraling downwards in life and unable to ask for help--- or receive it. The best you can do is to practice (you can reject this advice, of course, if it sounds lame) patience and self-care so that your emotional compass doesn't always point in his direction. Of course, I'm telling this to a very passionate person, so I know that your care for him may outweigh my thoughts...