no this blog is no excuse for my absences, but if you'd care to know why i'd be more than happy to fill you in.
i've been out of place lately, i wake up and get dressed but as soon as i get to my car i just can't make myself go anywhere. i have no motivation to go to school, for the only reason i started pursuing good grades was so i could graduate early and live with some asshole that i'm practically in love with. maybe i'm sick. maybe i just think i'm sick. either way i can't think straight. i can't concentrate. shit, i can't do anything right without some feeling stopping me.
but now i'm sitting here thinking "wtf, i'm pretty much gonna go on and become a bum if i keep acting like this" so i'm setting the record straight.
i'm gonna do my homework.
all my homework, becky- i know i'm gonna get a crap ton of points taken off my projects but at least i'm putting the effort into doin it.
i'll be at school on monday. most definitely.
1 comments:
I think that you are extraordinarily tough on yourself. You are emerging from one of your most intense relationships, correct? Give yourself a little slack:) Yes, do your best to remain as functional as possible so that school doesn't become an even bigger burden to bear, but if you can, try not to berate yourself for feeling lost after such an emotional upheaval. New plans will arise that will inspire new hope, excitement and love:)
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